"the universe has a funny way of bringing things together.."
I hear things like that all the time. Whether in a suggested pin or in a yoga class.
It's odd. This universe.
Yet I have grown accustomed to what someone means when they say it. They believe in a higher being, yet refuse to utter His name. Because for them, that makes more sense. The universe working things out on your behalf. Being on your side. Bringing justice. Having a plan for you.
I've said it so many times just from hearing it without even noticing. I verbally speak the creation, while actually meaning it's creator. Or thinking that's what I meant.
The other day, while on a walk with my mother.
I excitedly expressed: "I did it! I made my list*!"
I received an initial that's-good-for-you-look, because she knows from having 3 daughters that NO form of response equals a you're not listening or even care battle that is more struggle than it is even worth.
"No mom! You don't understand. I made my list, the universe now knows that. I am in a better position for Prince Charming to come. The universe knows that I know what I want and is more likely to bring it."
Skeptical stare from my mom.
Insert slight eye-roll from me "and by the universe I mean The Lord mom!!"
Because surely that's how it works: I tell the God of the universe what I want. And He sends it with free two day shipping as if He is a glorified version Amazon Prime that delivers stellar boyfriends. Because that is what I want. And He (just like the universe) seem to be employees of mine. WRONG!
Oh how easy it was for me to apply the rules of the universe to my God in order to benefit me. How wrong I was. Because the reality is we use the term "universe" to hopefully get all the benefits of His glory without a pinch of His lordship. Quite frankly, I NEED His lordship, more than I want the universe to hand me my perfect ideals.
I'm not bashing my list. It's pretty wonderful and poetic. I even know The Lord knew those deep desires of my heart before I even wrote them on paper. I'll thank the Lord God almighty one day for sending me that man because I know nothing on that list will go unnoticed. But I do recognize ways I try to work things out for my good. I try to be my own pretend god and rearrange the "universe" to put me in a more comfortable season.
I do believe that God will one day place me in my "ideal" season, but I also recognize there are some things I could learn right here in this one. I believe even further that I will not move on to the next season until I learn how to handle the one I am in with grace, fully dependent on God of the universe. Not my universal ideals. That I would treat the creator just as so and not reduce him down to a manipulable creation. The irony that the Lord and the universe would have the same sense of humor ;)
While in this season I figured I would pick up a book on such topics. Loving My Actual Life: An Experiment In Relishing What's Right In Front Of Me. My goal is to keep you posted along the way of my journey in this experiment and even do a closing book review. (Please note that I do not achieve all my goals sometimes but my intentions are good. AKA it might not happen, but I'll try.)
*You know the magical list most girls make of what they want in a guy so then they don't forget when faced with a dreamsicle that is a jerk! The same list I consider to be a summoning of princes. Kinda like a magnet.
